Are You Just Kinky or is it a Lifestyle

A dark alley in black and white

Show Notes

The audio edition (available at malflic.libsyn.com) and in the snazzy pickle player on the right  features The Chesty Blonde Provides the Sexy Intro and Outro with her sassy attitude and sarcastic sense of humor and featured lust filled comments about a certain guy in uniform.  Malflic goes on to explore his recent experiences at a Fetish Lifestyle meet and greet.  Along the way he tried to convince a non kinky photographer to try out wax play, obsesses about his wardrobe, and tries to answer the question of “Are you Kinky or is it a lifestyle?” all while poking fun at himself along the way.

Also included in the audio episode is a plug for E Lust Sex Blogs and a few brief words on Rev. John Sleestaxx’s book With a Mouth Full of Razorblades  becoming now available for free in PDF, Kindle and E Book Format.  Since recording he has also made In My Neighborhood avaiable able as well.

Are You Just Kinky or Is It a Lifestyle?

So first and foremost I’m not judging here, I’m exploring.  There are people who are lifestyle people and it works for them and that’s fucking awesome.  Then there are people who are kinky and participate in activities that are certainly part of the lifestyle but are just fragments they’ve incorporated their own little twist into and that rocks as well.  As I always say what ever gets you off as long as it’s between two or more consenting adults, involves a condom, a tub of lube and has farm animals no where near it.

What happens though when there are folks who don’t fit squarely in either camp, who as the good folks at fetlife put it “Live the lifestyle when they can”.  Enter me.  So what is the life style? What qualifies as living it or living it when you can?

A few weekends back I decided to come out of the proverbial kink closet. Well OK I do a podcast about kinky sex.  You know the whole bdsm, rope, pain, chips, dips, chains, and whips routine, and well that same weekend ended up playing with my friend Victoria one night and the next with a about a dozen lit candles the next trying to tempt a vanilla photographer friend named Lexi over to the  dark side.  Lexi seemed fascinated by the concept of wax play!  Sadly she would only let me drizzle a drop or two on her arm and not all over what I imagined to be the super sexy body she struts around with.    All of this though was done on my terms at times and places of my choosing.   Still despite the experiences I share in the podcast or write about for the website my kink life is really rather private beyond those outlets.

If there is any question about my interests then add to that several online profiles that make no mystery of my sexual proclivities and friends both real and cyber, feel free to look me up.  Despite all of that wondering out of the relative security of my semi private kink based life with people I know and trust and attending  a more open event once again represents a mile stone in many ways.

The very act of leaving the house can be both exciting and intimidating.  Not for everyday things unless there is coffee involved, then it always exciting.  Am I dressed ok?  What are all the other fashionable dominates wearing this fall?  Am I to clean cut?  It seems like an odd question but after someone called me GQ that night it’s one thing I’ll be asking myself before heading pretty much anywhere.  OK so I do have a subscription to GQ but Dark jeans, black shoes and a black long sleeve top don’t exactly scream fashion plate to me.   Then again what the fuck do I know I just got out of the house.  Enter a warm fall Saturday night after dark, a 40 minute drive, some moral lubricant of choice; my choice was diet coke.  Man am I tea totaling  bore.

I arrive at the event a little while after it started and things are in full swing.  I’m usually a 15 minutes early kind of guy but had an overwhelming concern about getting there and the friend who conned me into going being late…turns out it was a well founded fear as I entered a room filled with strangers and the only souls I knew were nowhere in sight.  Fuck it, as they say shit happens.   Enter the awkward sensation of being a total dork and you have what I was feeling like, a 5’10” big flesh colored dildo.  Looking back at myself as a giant awkward phallic symbol I might have approached things different.  “Hey ladies I’ve got length and girth on my side?” Perhaps it is for the best that I didn’t take that route  no one wants a living breathing sex toy metaphor from a total stranger.  Right?

It was just a meet and greet and even with my lack of general intelligence or a PHD from some snotty institution I do know my name and can function at a remedial level is social situations. The reality is this is very type of thing I think of going to each month to find an expanded circle of like minded equally twisted local souls and for one reason or another tend to never make it.  This time around a few acquaintances finally badgered me in to being there.  So after a few minutes of figuring things out a little I talked to a few folks, chatted a bit about nothing in particular and then sat down to order.

The first thing I learned is I’m more of a voyeur than I realized.  I know when I go to bars to watch bands I do the fucked up thing and actually watch the band, I study the gear, I take note of how the guitarist plays, that sort of thing.  After all once upon a time in a galaxy far far away I was a musician of absolutely no acclaim.   Why should it surprise me that I spend more time taking in my surroundings and watching the dynamics than participating in them.  I know this about myself but rarely like to admit it.  It seems when I go into a new situation I do the same thing. I listen and study what going on around me.  It didn’t matter that it was a room filled with kinksters, I stayed in my lay back and watch mode.  I watched the dynamics of the couples, the singles and topics being discussed.  I spoke only when I had something of potential value to add or out of common social courtesy.  I liked being there but I liked blending in and not standing out even more.   Perhaps there will be a day when I’m my obnoxious self but this wasn’t it.

Everyone was really nice and by and large I didn’t run into any territorial types during casual conversation.  Then again I wasn’t on the prowl for anything more than conversation and getting to know some new folks.  Looking around and watching things got me to thinking, is it the type of place I really belong?   Not because of anyone’s actions, or because I didn’t know the secret handshake, but because of my own beliefs was I treading on hallowed ground with my tarnished impure soul.

There is something about attending a kink event and worrying about having a tarnished soul that is slightly amusing.

Instantly I wished the Chesty Blonde was with me, she can talk to anyone and enjoy it.  She always lights up a room when she enters it, both with her personality and her looks, she’s a people person.  Me I’m a nerd!  It’s ok I know I’m a nerd.  I wished Miss Victoria was with me…she could have fun at a mortician’s convention the day the fountain of youth was discovered but alas I was more or less left to my own devices.  Being left to my own devices is rarely a good thing.  The only thing worse is find a few lemmings a co conspirator or two after being left to my own devices for a while then the insanity and moral depravity usually takes over.

This time I begin evaluating my life and relationships. Looking for answers, it was a long dark road but here are the abridged highlights.

“She’s a very kinky girl the kind you don’t take home to mother” certainly is not an accurate description of the Chesty Blonde. I have in fact taken her home to meet my mother and well she actually liked her…but that was years ago.  Now days it might be a tossup.  Before she came along I had taken plenty of less reputable companions places including one questionable miss last night who showed up in black lace body stocking, super high heels, and a leather skirt that barely covered her ass.   My mother instantly hated her which made her perfect in my eyes for about another three hours.  So perhaps the very kinky girl standard wasn’t the best thing to bench mark myself evaluation against. I’m a lucky man I know a lot of very kinky girls.  The truth is the Blonde isn’t naturally Kinky, I am.  She’s just along for the ride.  She’s the nice girl and I’m the dark brooding one not only sexually but in most things.  Facts are facts.

A few years back a lifestyle friend seeing our interaction ask “Is she collared?”  Watch us for ten seconds and anyone who’s really living that life knows the answer is no.  I just laughed and informed them that the dog doesn’t even wear a collar.  In Short we’re not a Ds couple.  Never have been never will.  Maybe that alone rules me out as an actual lifestyle guy.  Still I have to be more than just kinky right?  I have these borderline obsessions and live a very nontraditional life by conventional standards.

Once a Bastard always a bastard, still the question lingered on in my mind.  I personally identify as a top and on rare occasion will admit to actually being a sadist when it comes to certain things.   I can hear it now the choirs of people chanting “Pervert”.    Sticks and stones may break my bones but whips and chains excite me.  All kidding aside I’m saying is sometimes watching them squirm is very enjoyable and making them squirm can be heaven on earth.

When I talk to some folks who have been doing this as a way of life for a while often there is the entire ritual and formality to things that ironically reminds me more of catholic dogma than anything dirty that I’m into.  And then you light this candle and wave your magic whatever isn’t very different than then you go put on this and walk like that.  No fucking Green M&M’s.    It’s not much different than the 1950’s sex once a week TV sitcom stereo type.

I prefer my sex even the rough kind more like jazz music everybody is really fucking good at the basics and then they figure out how to make it different and interesting each time from there.  Again don’t get me wrong I’m not against rituals.  One of my favorite ones is when the Blonde comes running toward the bed naked…it means sex!  Perhaps I’m just too aloof to want to live by as set of rules and rituals beyond naked woman jumping into bed with me before she gets cold always equals orgasm.

I’ve mentioned this before but I still don’t get the entire Small capital I things.  Once upon a time someone flamed me a bit for not having a capital letter on my screen name and not being a sub.  I get it now the Bigger the M the more dominate I am.   It should have been so obvious to me.  Now I’m off to wave my giant M at all over cyberspace so the would be submissives will swoon with desire, soak their panties with filthy impure lust filled thoughts and give in to my every half baked whim.  This is more of a don’t be offended when I write you back disclaimer. I’m just happy when basic grammar is close to correct and there aren’t too many spelling issues on my side.  If you can handle that then I’m happy to correspond with you.

Ya know what I’d like right now?  I’d like a woman in a very sexy…hell I’d like anyone in the world to bring me a warm Brownie and a glass of cold milk.   If she’s dressed like a New York whore, French maid, completely naked, or the counter girl from the local baker it’s all fine by me.  The reason being it’s the brownie I want not the person bringing it to me.  Maybe that is the purpose of the rituals?  It the individual act, the ritual that is a big part the fetish and has less to do with who you are performing that act with.

I don’t know if all the black leather and red pvc pants in the world won’t make up for the fact at the end of the day, maybe I’m simply not lifestyle material; in the traditional sense of the word.  Then again I’ve never claimed to be.  I have friends who love it and hey again that’s what matters.  It doesn’t answer the real questions like

1)      So let’s say I’m just kinky.  Is that a problem at parties where there are lifestyle folks?

2)      What if we go to a conference will we be outcasts?   Ok more so than usual in my case

3)      Are combat boots a fetish?  Seriously I wear them a lot.  I love my boots.  I think its more punk rock than S&M but I could be wrong.

4)      Do I have to wear black leather pants and what if I don’t own any?

5)      How do you know how much rope is too much rope before there is a “problem”?

6)      Doesn’t everyone have more than 4 toy bags?

7)      Is NiN the only acceptable dungeon music?

8)      How do you discuss or broach the topic of those I’m kinky but not really lifestyle boundaries with new play partners. (Hint probably pre scene is a good idea)

9)      What do you call someone when you run into them at the mall, church or a parent teacher conference?

10)   If  I play with your partner am I expected to let you play with mine?

Sure some of those questions were purely in jest but others are things I’ve wondered or discussed with friends.  Even if this isn’t your first rodeo the answers vary depending on who you’re with and where you’re at  except for the rope one…a person can NEVER own too much rope! Not having enough rope is a problem having too much isn’t.

So the question remains am I just kinky or is it a lifestyle?   Well there is only one way to solve this dilemma show up for some more stuff and be who I am.  Just like some many things in life maybe I’ll be labeled something nice.  Whatever they decide to think of me may fit, then again maybe it won’t but the one thing I am certain of is that no one will mistake me for Vanilla.  Until then I’m off to define my own unique lifestyle and profess my undying fondness for Rough sex, Bondage, Lingerie , women of questionable moral standards, good sex, great Coffee and of course German cars.

A Tease, Musings, and Some New Kink ideas

Guess what’s coming up?  Stop it I gave you a hint in the damn title…KINK WEEK which is now less than two months away.   That’s right it is my self proclaimed bi (bi is better in some cases right?)  where was I oh yeah Bi annual celebration of sex and play that probably doesn’t involve the missionary position or anything that was covered in Sex Ed but might have been the very reason you took abnormal sexuality in college.  BTW I got an “A” and took the class with a few female friends, it was a good semester!  

 

Back to the topic…

To prove that I’m serious and to get your dirty little minds running here’s the planned posting schedule. Ambitious yes!  Then again what good is being stimulated and kinky if you can’t be over stimulated and excessively kinky now and then?  If all goes as planned There will be pod casts to go with the “ kink goes wrong” and “bed time”  story posts…to keep your hands free for other things or in the event you find yourself all tied up.

 

Day

Coffee &  Kink Goes Wrong

Mid Day Play

Bed Time Stories

Friday May 23

Discussing your life style with strangers

Dominance

Toy with Me

Saturday May 24

Latex Allergies

Sub Mission

She Wants to submit

Sunday May 25

The new guy at the munch shouldn’t wear white

Fetish Wear

Pinch, Touch, and Caress

Monday May 26

Marks, lines, bruises, and the locker room

Kneeling

The Release

Tuesday May 27

Vanilla House Guests

Wicked Little things

And the devils makes three…later that night

Wednesday May 28

2nd husbands

Bound

Tiny Little Lines

Thursday May 29

All Knotted Up

Waiting

The wait

Friday May 30

 

Honey Do you want to be a fetish Model

Readers & Friends Play along

Something special

 

 

 

As you can see I’ve done a lot of the work but there are audience participation options

 

Options you ask…yes options!  

 

First off. Ever want to be immortalized in a podcast…here’s your chance…you can be the featured voice in one of the bed time story readings.  If you’re interested drop me a line at admin@ malflic.com and we can work out the details.

 

 The details of the second one are to follow but could feature you and or a lover in a mid day play post dedicated to readers kinky pics.

 

On the down side there’s a rope event in my current home city this weekend and I won’t be there which completely sucks. The guest instructor is Graydancer (for all you spanko’s there’s a great bit on his latest ropecast that’s a quick and fun listen….no rope is involved)

 

And while on the topic of rope I’ve still not decided what color rope to buy for an upcoming kink week picture project. Suggestions are not only welcomed but encouraged!

 

Something Wicked

Here’s my offering of edgy and intense for your own imaginations to run wild with.    If  you’d like the audio version can be heard by click here or by visiting http://malflic.libsyn.com

 

 

Not shaking yet but edging ever closer to that subtle uncontrollable loss of composure she made her was toward the door.  He followed her, merely lingering a few steps behind. His heavy boots causing each long and lumbering stride to call out like the very literal sound of impending doom watching her as it moved closer. 

 

Making her way down the dark hallway bathed in motionless shadows.  Everything had fallen absolutely silent, except for his menacing movements.  Perhaps she just wasn’t hearing a sound as her mind raced playing the look she saw in his eyes over and over again.  A look filled with what could only be described as sinister intent.

 

It sounded so ominous, and felt like the world was watching her as she passed by every set of glaring and damning eyes.   Moving like a nervous and damned woman. She was convinced everyone knew what awaited her on the other side of the door that was now not so far in the distance. 

 

Fear when it takes the place of knowledge and reason it causes a vivid imagination like hers, at first it runs wild and imagines only the worst and then from there twists each and every of those irrational concerns into all consuming fictional possibilities, swimming in the unreal and the infinite uncertainty.

 

Sweat started to form on her pretty little brow, and her legs grew weak as she reached for the door. Fighting back the urge to throw herself on the floor and plead for anything but what she was imagining.  Instead her hand obediently turned the knob and it began to swing open.

 

 

She looked back at him hoping to see a glimmer of mercy in his eyes, there was only a glimmer of something wicked as she then turned to face the music and broke the threshold by stepping into the chamber.  Expecting him to arrive behind her only seconds later instead he called out as he passed.  “You know what to do to get ready.  Hop on up. I’ll be back”   Oh he’ll be back alright and far too soon for her liking as she waited a still growing bundle of nerves for him to return and join her.

 

That time was growing ever closer but not upon her just yet.  And after a few deep breaths and clearing some of the awaiting horrors and torture from her mind, the no so silent screams she believed she heard coming from the next room down.  Wicked little devices drilling away bits of a persons being in all too sensitive area’s.  Some people never seem to learn, and she was one of those.

 

Always well intentioned, starting off on the right foot after each session but shortly there after falling back to her old ways and bad habits.  Habits so engrained and bred out of pure laziness that even the times like these failed to improve or break them.

 

In the hall way the foot steps stopped, menacingly paused in front of her door.  All her sense were ablaze again as she heard another voice along with his and before the reality of the entire situation settled in the door had been opened and she jumped.  Her heart raced and her body shook subtly as he moved towards her.  She wanted him to start if for no other reason than the entire ordeal would be closer to over.  And it being over is the one thing that she wanted most.

 

But instead he took his time arranging the tools of his sadistic trade. A trade that had the guises of helping, of providing not only preventative measure but relief from the pain of things gone awry, no matters who fault it was…even if it was nature playing her cruel hand, or neglect in and of itself. It led to something awful.

 

The awful sounds of the tortured souls that had been off in the distance and next door were gone and as he set the last of his implements down to a clinking, thudding tone.  He looked in to her eyes.

 

She couldn’t see his mouth but as his voiced explained what was going to happen in very eloquent detail, she could feel him grinning behind his mask as he put her into position and reached toward the tray holding his devices.  She opened wide giving in to the inevitable and she could see it in his hand, moving in a unrelenting fashion toward her. 

 

He was about to begin and he was beginning with something wicked.

 

Clues Hints and Requests (Part 1)

BE ADVISED This story depicts  consensual M/F Spanking play and fantasies and is intended for adult audiences.

 

 

Gina had known Jeff for quite a while even before they began dating.  He was everything she had ever hoped for in the person she loved…well almost everything.   He was successful and athletic.  He might have been the only man who actually listened when she talked and made it a point of following the conversation.  Gina knew that she talked; a lot.  Breathing at times seemed optional for her.  Even though they had been together for a few years she would still melted just looking at how handsome he was.

 

Gina was the kind of girl that most men dreamed of also.  Her lean and long frame was accentuated  with sensuous curves and a sexually playful curious nature.  Gina knew she wanted something from him that she just couldn’t muster up the courage to ask for so began her quest into tempting him into fulfilling her well know but yet unspeakable desire.

 

At first she tried a sexy strip tease, gyrating in a room bathed in candle light. There was not doubt by Jeff’s reaction that he was enjoying her performance, standing there in just heels and a thong, barely and arms length in front of him, her hips moving slowly with the music. Gina asked after smacking her own bottom gently if he would like to help.  Jeff helped her alright and while she admitted that his attention on her pleasure was delicious except that he didn’t figure out the one thing she was hoping for.  Not one smack or a pat hard enough to make a sound, just gentle caresses from his firm hands.  She felt more frustrated than before she began, Jeff remained clueless as to her real desires.

 

A few weeks passed and Gina had come to the conclusion that perhaps it was her fault that he misunderstood her desires.  After all most guys don’t go to a strip club hoping to smack a dancers butt, they went to ogle them, perhaps a lap dance.  Convinced she had sent the wrong message it was time for a different approach.  Perhaps cooking together might give him a chance to tempt him into the spanking she wanted. 

 

It was going to be an all day affair, making sauce should be done the old fashion way leaving ample time for other things.  So as Jeff assembled the pasta machine Gina bent over to get towels out of a bottom drawer looked up through her long hair and suggested that “why don’t you get the wooden spoon that by me and find something to do with it?”  Jeff walked over and she wiggled her still turned upward bottom at him.  Smiling he picked up the spoon, first holding it in his left hand and then his right.  Stepping back from her slightly, she tensed with excitement thinking he was finally picking up on the clues and was about to give her a good swat with the spoon.  As she readied herself floating in what she was sure was coming but before she knew it glancing back Jeff was stirring a pot of red bubbling tomato sauce.  He proclaimed proudly to her “I think we caught it before it started to burn.” 

 

The only thing burning was Gina in frustration at having two wooden spoons cover with tomato sauce and her bottom without the slightest hint of red.  The pair spent and entire afternoon cooking together.  In truth it was great fun, talking and listening all the while Gina did her best to tempt him into what she desired.  Despite all the bending and potential things to be spanked with the day ended with her sitting comfortably during a nice long dinner.  Sipping her wine she was already calculating how to tempt Jeff next.    

 

A few nights later showed she showed up in the media room while he was watching TV.  She was dressed in a tight baby doll T, boys shorts with the lower part of her bottom fully exposed and a hair brush.  “Can I see that” he asked as Gina approached him.  She wanted to hand it to him and just lay herself across his lap.  “Would that be too obvious?”  She thought to herself.  He brushed her hair for an hour, while nice Jeff was still not getting the hint.  As she seduced him later that evening in the height of passion her long hair dangling down beside her face asked “ is there anything you would like to do?”  As she filled his ear with suggestions one of which was “do you want smack my bottom?”  He did once on one side and then on the other.  Not hard but just enough to make a little sound. Gina murmured in delight, trying to encourage him but that was the extent of the activity. 

 

She finally came to the conclusion that he was not going to take the hint, a more direct approach would be needed. 

I Always Did Like Pig Tails

 

 

This is an older piece written about 3 years ago, that said I’ve cleaned up some of the grammar but left the piece otherwise intact.  An all too typical insight into my life and friends.

 

 

So I’m at a dance club, more of a techno club really the other night.  We got there early and by early I mean around 10.  The early crowd was interesting in the fact that there were two polyester kings who look like the fell out of the midwest’s remake of a night at the Roxbury.  A bachlorette party had arrived just ahead of us and I unlike my one of my two friends was there exclusively for the music and the dancing.  Early on at the bar we were closest to there was a larger blonde woman in brightly colored striped dress and heels so high that her size only became more obvious.  She spent most of her time draping her self over the two cliché club boys and a very petite woman.  Oh yeah and one old guy who had to have been 25 years her senior. Dirty old man or Daddy Complex?  Who fucking cares.

 

The small woman had excessively long blonde hair and a tight little body.  As the club filled up she disappeared only to return in a tight black shirt and with her waist length hair pulled into two pig tails and obviously her already good mood became more intensified with each passing song and new dance partner. 

 

The bachlorette party went on a scavenger hunt inside the club and I was asked for a condom by at least 20 different women as part of this but my other now slightly inebriated friend who to say the very least is selective in his choice of women was doing his Joan Rivers red carpet routine each time a woman approached about how the parade of women were all classless sluts and he much preferred European women.  His growing disdain for anyone apparently over the age of 26 and lacking the body of a goddess became more evident with each passing drink.  Not normally a surly guy he truly had issues with the women who were older than him.

 

 As for me could have cared less watching the drink girls a brunette caught my eye,  high black heels, long thin legs, and a very short skirt.  After that I noticed a voluptuous black woman dancing on one of the risers, the DJ did his best not to suck as the crowd filtered in.  I’ve been to clubs in great cities like DC, New York, and Miami this was not one of those cities but should have been large enough to be decent.   The polyester kings kept annoying me and the little one in her pig tails was feeling something that I couldn’t.  Why you might ask,  because she was young and pretty?  No.  Because she was a woman?  No.  I could never feel what she was feeling because even if I wanted to do some X (or what ever she was on) I have a feeling that there would have been a shortage based on her usage that night alone.  So where the fuck is Sammy the bull when you need him?  Not in the Midwest giving me X.  She pounded and throbbed, she danced in a world all her own that was shared intermittently with the large blonde and the two polyester jerks. 

My friend began insulting an attractive woman in her 50’s for daring to ask him for a condom.  Regaling her with phrases like “even if I had one it wouldn’t have enough lube to get your old pussy wet” and “have you heard of menopause?  You can’t get pregnant when you’re as old as the fucking earth”  Fortunately she just heard no and wondered over to me to ask for one.  I politely explained that I didn’t since the drug store was out of over sized prophylactics tonight.  A blatant lie of course but she smiled playfully and I suggested she ask the sharp looking kid in the suit by the bar.  I’m sure he had a condom since he looked like the type who would be leaving with someone. 

 

The feature DJ took the stage and began to suck only marginally less than the last guy but found her groove two songs in as the club filled, pulsating with dancers, bouncing to the rhythm though the smoke and fog filled room as the green and blue lights flashed providing a silhouette here and a glimpse there of the patrons.  The bride approached and asked if I would like a piece of candy off her necklace and a kiss.  I paused and politely declined.  Was it because I felt there was something morally reprehensible about kissing a woman soon to be wed to another man?  Of course not, I might be in the mod west but I don’t subscribe to that school of thought.  Was it because I myself am in a committed relationship and considered such behavior to be adulterous?  No, I didn’t want to eat off her necklace and kiss her because god knows how many drunk and diseased slobs had eaten candy off of the same necklace and kissed those same lips.  Germs and diseases I did not need anymore exposure to than I had gained from her leaning into me.  I watched her for a while, grinding one anonymous stranger after another.  I give the marriage two years tops.  A shame perhaps but more of a shame should the life of a child conceived during that time be affected. 

 

As I float back in from my own small world of watching I notice my small pig tailed blond dancing front to back with the large blond in the brightly colored striped dress in a seemingly sexual manner.  I look away and upon looking back to see pig tails raising the skirt of the large blonde who had bent over a bar stool. Drawing her fingers across the other’s thighs, between her legs and then landing a few firm smacks on her ass.  Before she stood up again and began dancing again more intensified by what I assumed to be a mystery substance. 

 

It brought to mind the words a rope slut friend had spoken to me earlier that day…”Chicks on X don’t like S&M”.  Could she have been wrong?  Was it based on her own experience or preferences, didn’t matter it was irrelevant to the situation.  My friend was no doubt was dancing barely clothed and feverishly in a city half a nation away looking for an anonymous stranger of her own to share her own particular sexual proclivities with.  Most of those proclivities include Japanese words and boy scout like skills. 

 

 

The night wore on, the insults intensified and the crowd began to bore so we left those who live in that world to their own devices as we drifted back to ours.  I can still see pig tails dancing in my mind moving indiscriminately from one partner to another,  feeling nothing but lust and joy and music perhaps she is the one who had it right. 

I always did  like pigtails.

The Masquerade A chapter from It Had been Years

Typically when I post it’s random, quickly put together and what ever in going on in the moment for me. This one is not the case based on all the great feed back Kink Week on Myspace I’ve decided to share an excerpt from my completed but unpublished novel that at it’s core is two love stories but is lifestyle centered. This occurs about 120 Pages in so some back ground is… The lead female characters Nadrea is bi and a switch. Donna has bi tendencies but is pure sub. The male leads Vincent is straight confident male who has been around many different blocks and Robert (the husker) is as Vanilla as the day is long. So with that said in the future I’ll be posting my short erotica here but wanted to provide alonger piece to kick things off.

Friday night in a club, not an unusual occurrence by any stretch of the imagination and Nadrea arrived before the club opened the DJ’s were still setting the sound, the “models” were being briefed on their roles for the evening, as a group. As the music progressed to the type that would be pulsating through out the evening, people took their places milling about and the rest of this little world filtered in. As the clubs flashing white light danced sinisterly over the now crowded room full of undulating flesh and flowing hair. An occasional beam of red or violet light caressing a section of humanity moving in their own unique interpretation of life and rhythms for a few fleeting moments of life until most go back to their otherwise soul crushing daily existence. But for those few brief seconds in a lifetime the sounds thump, flashes of light join them in their dance in what would otherwise be a dark cold empty space, but their energy floats along with the man made fog and the smoke. The room continued to fill and assorted chemicals, although they are strictly forbidden, flow through so many people’s veins.

 

The room was now filled with images that would terrify the good God fearing people of the Midwest. Men were dancing with men, couples and groups writhing in rhythmically induced ecstasy. This was a part of the world that most cultures wouldn’t even try to understand. Something wicked was occurring off in the corner as he entered the club. An angry Goth DJ screamed encouragement or insults, it is indecipherable which, at the crowd. There was no judgment here, no intolerances of any kind for ones choice of preferences or partners. For such a misunderstood group they were very open and accepting of others. Although, one could never tell just by looking into the room they were just people indulging their own consented choices, living in their own personal Nirvana’s for those few fleeting hours, for their own hedonistic paradise before going back out into the light of day that required most to be something they truly were not. A handful of merchants with small tables full of their wares were on the one outside wall of the club, more like something one would expect to find at a chamber of commerce mixer or a small town country craft fair. Except the people who typically attend those things, would think sins that were being committed in the shadows of our nations capital, rather reveling in the freedoms we have. But unlike the Chamber mixers, the insurance agent was replaced with shoes and boots, instead of copiers there are implements of pleasure and pain hanging from a chain link display behind a table that didn’t have diamonds and pearls on it, but rather leather collars and metal spikes. It wasn’t Victoria’s Secret where matching ones lacey little undies to an allegedly racy bra is important, although Nadrea still thought about those types of things should always match or at the very least compliment each other. Here it was leather and rubber. Silk was almost completely out of place: a woman in an woven unlined immodest silk top drenched in sweat dancing next to a seemingly gay man all in leather, a USMC tattoo peaking out from under hi ½ sleeved shirt. Don’t ask, don’t tell, right? The building looks more like a structure that should have been on a corner on Bourbon Street that someone just forgot to add the balcony to. But unlike Bourbon Street, the outside was calm and unassuming while inside the decadent underbelly of sexuality danced its pornographic little dance. Rituals and rights detailed to the ultimate end, such a stringent formal process for something so misunderstood. Tonight was a birth right, it was one of the events not to be missed it was the annual Leather Masquerade. Bodies in some cases painted to hide their nakedness or to accentuate the nudity without actually, truly being exposed. Feather masks and leather headdresses hid the faces of many of the party goers and add an element of old world European mystery to a scene that would have made Marquis de Sade proud. Nadrea in her black latex shined to a mirrored perfection, the boned lace up corset top drawing her waist in tightly and pushing her breasts into an opera singers the compacted flesh producing a fake roundness on her upper chest. The music stopped and the lights froze in place as if time itself had stopped. Nadrea saw Vincent as he passed through the inner doors of the vestibule. Peering through her one hundred and eighty dollar purple feather and faux diamond encrusted mask she sees he was wearing his well shined black Doc Martins, painted on black leather jeans and he had checked his shirt at the door along with his coat. Nadrea until this point hadn’t seen his skin except for his face and forearms. His stomach was not only flat but was ridged with deep muscular creases, quadriceps rippling through the leather pants as if they were a mere extension of his skin. His arms looked large and powerful from a distance, his chest barreled and his round shoulders looked like someone had evenly split a cannon ball placing a half on each side of his upper arm. Most of the other men in the club were toned, some were even muscular but none were built like his large brooding figure. He looked more like an All Pro linebacker looking to smash some one into the ground. “This disco use to be a cute cathedral” rang out as the evenings host explained that the building was “a den of inequity before it was cleansed to become paradise.” Here, paradise resembled more a part of hell, as he screamed into the microphone “let the real beats begin!” And with that the music kicked back in louder and with a much different flavor as Vincent dawned his simple black mask. Unlike the other parts of his wardrobe that fit into the scene his mask looked as if it was left over from his lone ranger costume when he was a kid. Nadrea watched from a distance as people who saw him tried to size him up. The women watched, they couldn’t tell but most were sure he was straight. At first he didn’t notice what was really going on, at first glance it was just another industrial dance club, Vincent thought to himself, “Ok, so they’re having a theme night. Music, smoke, lights and writhing sexuality” it was to him all pretty standard fair. As he stepped forward into the club things began to catch his eye, 12 men and 12 women alternating in gender creating two even rows of souls with their eyes to the floor kneeling with hands tied behind their backs forming a path that had to be walked through to enter the main club area. As he stepped into the space between the first two souls the lyrics associated with the music caught his ear. “Did I disappoint you? Did I let you down? Did I stand on the shores and watch you drown?” As he entered his face was not stoic, his eyes were wild taking it all in as quickly as he could. On the stage there were men and women on display in various forms of bondage ranging from simple shackles and cuffs on the ends of the stage working it’s way to the exquisite Japanese style rope work in the center displaying both the front and the back on different “models”. Nope, he wasn’t in Kansas any more or Iowa either for that matter. As he progressed through the 24 souls slowly admiring them with a child like curiosity and taking in the other surroundings, he was greeted by a beautiful woman who looked like she was part dominatrix out of that issue of Penthouse when he was sixteen and part high end party planner. On one side was an Asian woman in what appeared to be a sea foam green latex outfit that was trimmed in black velvet around the sleeves, the skirt and the opening exposing her cleavage. On the other side was a submissive man and woman. Nadrea hadn’t been able to take her eyes off him since he entered. She knew he would come, her grin widening at the thought of the possibilities. The host greeted him “Good evening.”

“Fuck.” escaped Vincent’s mouth as what was going on around him was beginning to truly set in.

“Top or bottom?” the dominatrix asked as people in the club had begun to not only notice Vincent but to point him out to others.

“Hugh” Vincent uttered sounding like he looked, a stupefied dumb jock.

“Well what are you?” the hostess pressed just as Vincent was noticing that she was wearing a leather teddy and thigh high boots, although the term teddy usually implied something feminine and soft, her outfit was neither of these things.

“I’m meeting a friend, first time here” he then replied in a more coherent and somewhat more confident manner.

“Ahh, no wonder I didn’t recognize you, I doubted that I could have missed someone like you.” She then proceeded to go over “The Rules” as she put it. “No cameras, no pictures, no cell phones with cameras’. If you have a phone with a camera, Mira will cover it with a band aid. Just then the Asian woman with the dyed Raggedy Ann red hair produced a band aid that matched the green in her outfit.

“No, I’m good, no phone tonight, only foreign substance in my pants is the ID and drink money.” Vincent replied starting to sound more like himself.

“That’s nice, love” she said without a second thought then continued on with the rules, she came out of character every so slightly sounding less like an enlightened sexual being and more like the mandatory legal ease at the end of a TV commercial. “We are pan sexual…No touching with out permission, no exposed genitals in public areas” Vincent thought it was starting to sound a lot more like New Orleans. “Everyone is welcome here” she said and it did in fact seem to sound genuine. “Drink, dance and enjoy!” she said flashing a wicked smile at him. The afore mentioned Mira then spoke, her soft oriental features and skin clashed with the stupid red hair and mint green dress. She looked like something that they might have drawn in an episode of the Jetson’s.

“Gay, straight or bi?” she asked again. Vincent who was thinking a little less about the Jetson hooker episode he had just devised in his head and more about why the fuck they cared if they were pansexual. “Meeting a friend not sure what she is.” He said producing the card Nadrea had given him the night before “Why does it matter who I like to fuck?” he asked with and edge in his tone. Mira hearing his question “It doesn’t, but it’s also a waste of my time if you’re gay.” She said taking a leash from the female submissives’ hand and gave it to Vincent. “She can finish the tour and help you find your friend.”

 

As he followed her, which seemed somewhat backwards for the person holding the leash to do in this situation, but then again as a kid he had a dog that just ran ahead and choked itself every time they went for a walk, at least she wasn’t doing that, he thought. Pausing and realizing that there was probably someone in the club right now who would get off on that. By the time he was past the hostess, a group had backed up behind him clamoring and greeting each other with how great the night was going to be.

 

As Vincent started to cross the edge of the dance floor toward the bar he spotted Nadrea coming across towards him. “I see her.” he said handing the leash back to the woman, he wasn’t quite sure what proper etiquette was, did he have to take her back to where he got her like soccer mom renting a stroller at the mall or bring her back full like a rental car to avoid an outlandish set of charges. He smiled laughing at his own thoughts, even here he could amuse himself with his own twisted sense of reality. She just took the leash and headed back to the hostesses’ side. He waited as Nadrea got closer, “Drink?” He offered.

“Yeah, but not there asshole.” She said. Ok, looking around all the bars seem equally crowded. So he just continued to head to the closest one. Nadrea tried to tell him not to head in that direction, but he can’t hear her over the music. She grabbed his hand. Despite them spending time together before and kissing for the first time just yesterday their hands had never touched except to exchange metro tickets. Breaking stride and turning towards her. “Look it’s crowded there, I have a private table over there with a few friends, no line, one waitress to every two tables.”

“I’m fine here” he replied mostly just to irritate her.

“Dick head!”

He laughed, at her frustration. “No thanks, I just came to dance.” And with that he took a bottled water from the passing waitress, flipped her one of those infamous 20’s that he tormented Deb with, gulped it down and took himself to the dance floor to join the throngs of sweaty bodies. He wasn’t there for the scene or the shock value, he wasn’t sure why he was there, so he decided to dance. Nadrea was baffled by just how aloof he was, how she couldn’t influence him. How he showed up and then ignored her, did he really think he was there to dance? Although as she watched him, he was fairly good at it. Nadrea headed back to her table.

 

About an hour later a winded, sweaty Vincent appeared. He greeted Donna and her somewhat shell shocked Husker. He was the very kind of person that would be nervous by the raw sexuality all around him. He thought he was open minded, understanding and progressive, but in truth his tolerances were not all that far from the main stream. Perhaps last week wasn’t as wild, the music sounded the same and upon reflecting on it there were a few people around in leather pants, he just assumed they were French tourists. The Husker sat quietly with his back to the dance floor.

“Nice of you to join us” Nadrea said with faked sarcasm.

“My pleasure.” Vincent said as he slide into the over stuffed chair behind her.

“That was my seat!” she said as she sat on the arm of the chair next to him. He ordered two more waters. The Husker added a third.

“Why don’t you two just order some warm milk before bed time?” Donna scolded, although she herself despite having been there for more than an hour was barely through her first drink, the Husker on the other hand was playing camel, he was drinking water like he was heading out into the desert. Suddenly the Husker felt a little more comfortable, there was someone else he had met and conversed with. The two talked sports, just like the first time, but updating the conversation with what they expected out of the upcoming weekends games rather than ones that had already passed. Tiffany arrived wearing what could only be described as a shiny Bavarian milk maid’s dress, and heels that were not made for dancing in except for professionals in the skin trade.

 

When the next round of waters arrived, the Husker continued his camel routine, drinking water as if it could not only save him from conversation, but also make him invisible. This time Vincent gulped two bottles down in less than three breaths, slid to the side of the chair Nadrea was on, forcing her to move as he stood up and in his worst German accent “And now we dance!” Amusing himself with old Saturday night live skits in his head. Taking the milk maid’s hand in one of his, and then Donna’s hand in the other he looks at the Husker continuing on with the bad accent, “Come along now Dieter!”

Not sure of what was happening, the Husker replied politely, “My name is Robert.” “Never mind, Bobby” Vincent said dropping the bad accent, “no fucking sense of humor! We’re going to dance and you’re coming with us.” And as he walked towards the dance floor with ladies in hand into the center where it was the closest and the hottest, the Husker followed. Vincent danced and danced some more. He was suddenly young again, it was like the clock had been set back 20 years and the only thing that mattered was the next song and the next rhythm. Tiffany found him quite alluring and the Husker tried to move with Donna, eventually losing some of his white bread box step awkwardness for a little genuine euphoria in his bounding steps. Nadrea took her chair back as the others at her table slowly snuck away to join the dancing. “I’m the queen of the club.” She thought to herself. But three songs later staring at the one remaining couple around her set of tables finally succumbed “Ahh, fuck it! Let’s dance.” Again she was not in control, other men fell at her feet and he did what ever he wanted. Normally she would have been delighted to dance, but she wanted to make him uncomfortable, to do what she wanted, instead he was the party. She found them in the center, a dancing milk maid closest to him, but the other pariahs had started closing in, Vincent was surrounded by scantily clad dancers that varied in size and shape in costume and race. Mira had made it from hostess to dancing with him and Tiffany. “The bastard” Nadrea said out loud but no one heard or cared. She walked up to him placing herself between his two most obvious dancing partners and joined in. As the song ended the next had a long symphonic opening and as many on the floor took a brief reprise to catch their breath Nadrea stepped closer in to Vincent. He looked her in the eye and smiled a wicked grin. Leaning into Mira asked may I touch you? She nodded her approval while showing a devilish grin. He put his arms gently around her, pulling her close looked deeply into her eyes and kissed gently and slowly, releasing her as if she was unimaginably fragile as he stepped back. Mira’s eyes seductively watching him not breaking contact with his as he brushed himself solidly across Nadrea moving over to Tiffany who was very well aware of the scene unfolding in front of her. “May I touch you?” he asked and with out hesitation, “Yes, any way you want to” He took her firmly almost roughly in his arms, lifted her off the ground kissed her from the base of her neck and raised her higher off the ground until his lips met the lowest point of her cleavage not completely encased in latex, setting her down as solidly as he had picked her up. The song had started in earnest and the floor again heaved in it erotic rhythms, but Nadrea had seen enough, it was her turn. She dropped to her knees and kissed him from the base of his boots slowly up to his knees, her nails gently caressed his sweat soaked back.

 

Her teeth nibbled on his thighs as she passed over them. Her lips lingered on his crotch as she kissed her way up further to his stomach and in the valley that his muscular chest created. Past the base of his neck to the tip of his chin as he leaned down into her so she could reach. As she moved to his lips he kissed her back, deeply. As she tried to prolong the kiss he moved his head back “Until later. Now we dance!” Looking back at Mira and Tiffany who were still watching as their bodies moved gently to the loud pulsating song. Nadrea had his attention, she had the whole time his display was done just to provoke her and provoke her he had. Nadrea was never that intimate with anyone, people who knew her knew that she didn’t like to kiss and they had never seen her like she had just been with anyone. Nadrea never thought twice about it, she was marking her territory and making sure she had his interest. The other ladies however, would have been more than happy to share him.

 

More than an hour passed, the group dancing among themselves and with intermittent strangers. The Husker excused himself even camels have to pee, Vincent decided join him leaving the ladies on the floor.

“What was that out there?” the Husker asked with a farm boy’s wonder.

“No fucking clue, but I liked it.” Vincent admitted. Stopping by the much less crowed bar, he flagged their waitress down who was bored since her table for the night was obsessed with dancing and ordered a dozen bottled waters, 4 Apple-tini’s, 4 Chocolate- tini’s and a large glass of orange juice. Vincent slipped her a hundred. “Sorry, it’s my fault they’re dancing, so here’s a little extra for you.” She thanked him not looking right away but realizing moments later what he had done. The water bottles and the Martini’s arrived at the table, packed in silver buckets of ice. The Martini’s still in the shakers and the glasses submerged.

 

One o’clock rolled around and the group was mostly spent, they headed to the table to find the refreshments. Vincent once again took Nadrea’s chair this time she sat playfully across his lap, a move more befitting the previous night’s school girl look. Mira and Tiffany followed suit. Tiffany sat on one arm of the chair and Mira knelt by his feet. Nadrea kicked her, Vincent may not have even noticed her there, but her quite submission to him was not to be tolerated. Mira soon after took the chair next to them. Most went straight for the water and then onto the other drinks Vincent with his OJ, the ladies with the Martini’s, the Husker however stayed with his water. They collapsed into the furniture, the sweat still poured from everyone’s skin before they could begin to dry. The rested and they talked. Tiffany and Mira babbled at each other about some unimportant similar interests. Donna draping her arms around the Husker on a couch, she was genuinely glad he was there. Nadrea squirmed on Vincent’s lap, traced his face with her fingers and fixed and re-fixed his hair. Soon it came time to go and this time Vincent was the first to leave, bidding his farewells, hugs and kisses for the ladies, jovial hand shakes with them men. He turned to Nadrea, “Care to join me?”

Nadrea responds “Only if we can bring those two” pointing at Tiffany and Mira.

“Fine by me.” He stated unphased and headed for the door Nadrea was again following him. While he stood at the coat check, waiting on his belongings Nadrea caught up. “Where are the other two?” he asked.

“I can get them and I doubt you can keep up with the three of us. I’ve had them both and it takes a lot of effort.”

“Cool, more pancakes for me” as he put on his coat and again she followed him into the street.